Day 115: Sunday, July 03, 2011
I’m angry, which I guess is the second to last stage of getting over someone. I hate being like this, but in a way it’s refreshing because I no longer feel sad or sorry for myself. I can understand her side though because in a way I crossed the friendship boundary when I tried to go further, so the obligations of being polite and friendly no longer have to apply to her. In addition, if I take another step further back, even though she playfully led me on, I know she didn’t exactly promise me anything, which means she doesn’t owe me anything… like a smile... an acknowledgement... or especially a response to an email that I’ve been waiting for the past four days regarding business (which is the actual reason why I am angry).
I wonder whose fault is it really that we are on different pages… I guess it’s mine for letting myself fall into this seductive black hole, but anyways I’m tired of beating myself up, so I’ll place the blame on her for now.