Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day 164: Sunday, August 21, 2011

“T.B. is a monster,” I sometimes jokingly say to people because, in a way, it just keeps growing and evolving while sucking in everything around it…

I have always known that words are a powerful thing, but didn’t really understand it till now. Just two words that I wrote in a passage this morning for T.B. (which has already been deleted) made me lose two friends… and both of whom I have known and cared about for over ten years.

Ironically, during the past few weeks, my life seemed to be changing for the best… I could have honestly said that I was happy and probably more content than I have ever been like I was walking on a cloud… but today- even with the best intentions in mind when I wrote the piece- I hurt my friends by carelessly exposing too much this morning; and now I feel like the scum of the earth.

Ten years of friendship gone… Two friends for two words… And I can say without a doubt:


“It was not worth it."


  1. what?
    I can't even imagine what this could be.
    and no one even saw it.
    how sad...

  2. Dude, I don't know the details but it sounds like a honest mistake and you had good intentions, things like this can be rectified. Surely your 10+ year relationship is worth more than 2 words. I agree that it's not worth losing friends over this. You're in Japan so do as the Japanese do, do your best to make it right!

  3. This hurts to read man, what do you have if you loose your best friends? I hope they recognise your intentions and it works out for you pat!

  4. Hi, thanks, I am trying my best to apologize... and time can heal wounds I think.
    Thanks for your support.